hello... its been a while

how has everyone been?

heres whats been going on

i fell in love, with a boy

his name is john

and i love him more than anything

and i would do anything for him

he left me

to go be with some asshole who didnt even love him

that assholes name is joey

i hate him

i was completely crushed

and still am on a certian level

there is this guy who is in love with me

actually more than in love with me

he loves me like i love john

a few days ago he cut himself really badly all over his body

because i dont/wont love him the way he loves me

when i heard this i got totally drunk

and then he called

and was going to kill himself while i was on the phone with him

i had to talk him down while i was totally shitfaced

2 days ago he overdosed on caffene pills and almost has a heart attack

i dont want to be around him anymore

because im afraid of what he'll do to himself

of what he could do to me

and that i might be using him for his money

i secretly think he's totally ugly

im (not) so secretly superficial

john called the other day and told me that i was right about joey being an asshole and that he realized how much he loved me and that he wanted to be with me again and that he didnt want to loose me

after i got off the phone i cryed because i was so happy

one of my friends is deffinetly pregnant

im soooooooo bored

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